I am devastated...Indra my boy have been diagnosed with lymphosarcoma. I guess its like hearing from your doctor that your child is gravely ill and there is no cure. I do not blame the Vet though this is the 4th time I am seeing them. I guess I wanted the Vet to have all the answers but apparently because Indra was still looking so alert, they didn't think to check.
To keep my composure I have decided to focus on treatment so that I can improve his quality of life. Lymphosarcoma is not genetically influenced and no one seems to know how it come about but sometimes it happens to middle and older aged canines but Indra on the other hand is only 5.
So I have to say that I am ill-prepared. Everyone that I know have somewhat been touched by Cancer and I think 2008 has had a real bad start for me. I have been preparing half-boiled eggs over the weekend and mixing it with some wet food...as long as he is eating, he is still getting the nutrients he needs.
We took him to the park yesterday and he was happy though exhausted from the whole affair. The Vet called Saturday with the bad news. I have tried to get out of the mourning mode but it is like a whirlwind...sometimes I am delighted that he is not in pain and at times I feel helpless because I cannot do anything.
I am still unsure whether Chemotherapy is the way to go but I am calling the specialist to book a consult. Hopefully this afternoon coz without treatment I will loose him in 2-4 weeks. Next is to call the breeder to inform them of the bad news as well. They too will be devastated - any dog lover would.
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Hadi,
I'm very sorry. I know what it's like to hear your pet (who for all intent and purpose is your child) is ill. I wish you and he the best. If you need an ear, let me know.
Oh Hadi! I'm so sorry.
Words can't express. You are right in focusing on the treatment. If not, you'd be no good to anyone.
If you need to chat or anything, let me know my friend.
Thanks Guys... I am utterly devastated and have been tearing up at work the whole entire day, in the car, while out on my walk and in my sleep.
He starts Chemo tomorrow and hopefully I can hold on to him for another 12 months - I suppose I need to be optimistic but it is hard letting go especially when he is only 5.
I guess I am trying to give him the best quality of life but know that there is no cure. That is the hard bit I think.
Thank you for offering...it does mean a lot to me but I think I need to do some personal mourning I guess to get it out of my system.
:-(
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